Playing Jenga Without You

Grief is a crazy thing. 


You can be having a regular, normal day. A great one, even. You might even be the one giving Chizuk to a friend in need. 


Then WHAM! 


It is really like being blindsided. You don't sense it coming, but when it hits, it's like being hit by a truck. 


Tonight it was a small disappointment, but it is one that makes this Jenga tower we are living on a little more unstable.  

Maybe tomorrow someone will place a piece to make it more balanced. For right now, I feel the weight of single parenting and the loss of Trip'n Daddy immensely.  He was always there.  Maybe not the best in a crisis..but there.  We would be in this together. 


Of course, it didn't help that as I am getting this piece of news the following song was playing on my iTunes DJ. (True confessions, it was the Glee version.  I had never even heard of it before Rachel sang it on Glee...)


Without You (David Guetta)
I can't win, I can't reign
I will never win this game
Without you, without you


I am lost, I am vain,
I will never be the same
Without you, without you


I won't run, I won't fly
I will never make it by
Without you, without you


I can't rest, I can't fight
All I need is you and I,
Without you, without.... You!
....
I can't quit now, this can't be right
I can't take one more sleepless night
Without you, without you


I won't soar, I won't climb
If you're not here I'm paralyzed without you, without you


I can't look, I'm so blind
Lost my heart, I lost my mind without you without... You!


I am lost, I am vain,
I will never be the same
Without you, without you, WITHOUT YOU